Sometimes - no very often, I find myself using words that are completely different from the word(s) I want to say. I also use: mixing words with thoughts that form complete thoughts/sentences I also use typing and sometimes even with the other two. I juggle and switch their positions/order sometimes. I also use signs, eye movement, actually writing on paper and telepathically to a extent -- well at least half believing that I am pulling the thought(s) / words from another being or other entity(s) combined with my own thought / body spirit energy.
The reason I communicate (to different people I actually know, some I guess at their actual identity and even keeping personal reminders and notes for myself) this way is to stay above or below what I can only assume is the combination of electronic/machines, inebriated / sick / normal / just having died / just having been born people and their thoughts /+ bodies energy along with possibly artificial intelligence and even my own conscious which I sometimes, I am fairly certain can become malicious - absolutely dangerous and a risk to my well-being as well as my friends, family and other loved ones / romantic fires. Simultaneously - doing this is also changing energy from past experience and thought of my own or of those(s) energy around me (some new, some old, some combined, some withering, sometimes all?!) so that I am also attempting to communicate and be at peace / harmonious with any new souls, my own as well as the old souls around or not but who will be and the cycle continues.
Truth is I am also aware and at any moment ready to build walls and or disconnect from 1, a small or also even large group of these souls in order to see my own path or some truth more clearly and or to continue on a path that I have deemed safe, beneficial or vital to the whole of the souls that will stay with me. The ones that don't - I have no ill intention toward, I simply am consciously deciding not to pay attention or participate in energy or actions that they may be doing so that I can focus and concentrate on what I feel I CAN see / control and utilize to make my life and ultimately my destiny complete, whole and without pain - either forever more or again and again.
That is all I can wish for. Though wishing is depending on the individual not always the best thing - although perhaps it IS and always has been. Hard to say. Oh and at least for now / then. Always expect change - unless you know that you no longer have to, in which case I envy your blissful heartcore.
P.S. Whoops. Almost forgot - UNLESS the change you no longer are expecting means that the only thing you will now and forever more be experiencing mentally, physically is loss/pain
